Failing Pieces

 My body needs rejuvenation.

I can't even give false hope that I need help in doing so. I try to be so independent and nothing is wrong I ignore all of the signs and take all of the risk. In this past week alone I have been hospitalized twice for the same thing, not that I'm continuing anything it's that I'm not working or seeking help for it to get better.

There was a time I thought I could do everything by myself and need no-one but those days have come and gone. I am not superwoman and I only have one body, temple in which case I don't always treat in the best way.

From today on out I need all of my organs, all of my best moments, all the air and start treating myself with the Gold life I talk so often about.

It's so easy to say something and not mean it because you wish for it but how much harder is it for you to put your everything to ascertain it.

I cannot be in this same position next year, I don't even know about next week, I believe I'm in the hospital more than a job and I can't even find my passport which gives me anxiety. I have to make it. I'm so used to pain and let downs I'm afraid about when things actually go right how I will take it.

I want to live, to prosper, I came to win, to learn to leave my faulty ways to burn, falling to the wayside.